A Day In the Life of a Pastors Wife: A Mother's Love

I just wanted to let you all know, my one book a week challenge has not stopped.  I have shifted from books to "The Book".  I have decided to read my bible in 90 days.  Which doesn't quite leave me much time for leisure reading!  Once I complete this "challenge" I will be back at it!  I encourage all of you to begin a "Bible Reading Plan".  It doesn't need to be as rigorous or intense as reading the bible in 90 days, but something to keep you on track!  

On to other business...since homeschooling I have had wonderful opportunity to see what an impatient terrible mother I am! Ha....no joke!  Homeschooling can definitely bring out the worst in a person, but I am thankful for that.  One can assume they are the most loving person in the world when they only hang out with others once a year!

Becoming a Homeschooling Mama, has humbled me in so many ways.  But one particularly tough lesson that I have learned, is how much of an effect I have on my precious daughters.  One snap or grouchy comment can damage their confidence and self worth.  The way I treat them has a long lasting effect on their characters, personality and how they view life.

This revelation became more apparent when I looked back at my own upbringing   You see growing up my mother wasn't the most "mum like". She was quite young and I was an "accident".  So although she did what she could, she never really "wanted" me.  She always treated me with rejection and disdain.
Even into my adult years.  Although she was outwardly "nice" to me and told me she "loved me", I never actually "felt" she did.

Fast forward into my mothering years and I struggle being a mom.  Why? Because I didn't grow up experiencing a mothers unconditional love, so I have no clue how to give it.  Add homeschooling to the equation and all of a sudden I realize "wow", not only has my upbringing really affected me, now I can pass that on to my daughters.  Scary thought?

Children are such helpless beings.  A precious gift from God.  We can often forget that in the go-go's of life.  We can also forget how our harsh words, or attitudes can affect them in the long run! How I pray that I can love my children with a Christ like love, that they can grow up to pass that on to their own children!